Clouds. I love them.. Took a walk in the rain today, for no reason other than the rain was THERE, and I wanted to be a part of it..
and I took photos.. around a hundred.. of the clouds I saw. I'm only uploading about 20 or so of my favorites, though. ^^' So you all won't hurt me.

so by popular demand, I'll be submitting two versions of my art from now on- the detailed high-res versions, and the more viewer-friendly low-res. ^^'' there are advantages to both, so just take your pick. ^^

I love detail. I take a lot of pride in the individual lines I put in the fingers, and the little folds in the skin, and the pores.. and all that stuff. ^^'' However, this makes for very large submissions, and while I submit them big for the sake of detail, I've decided now to submit two versions of my art from now on. The detailed, high-res, and the viewing-friendly low-res... which itself is still kinda big, but far more modest. ^^

so, uh, enjoy twice as much now!!

Eh, I don't want to be negative, nor do I want to try and gain sympathy, but if I put something in my LiveJournal, it's gonna get flamed. Here is my sanctuary.

I loved a woman once. Blindly, genuinely, a classic hopelessly romantic love. She made me feel whole when I was with her, I was stronger, I felt good about myself, and was 20 lbs lighter than I became after she decided she didn't love me anymore. I know it happens a million times a day, lost love, but I wish I was one who was able to cope with it better. It's been a year now, and I'm no better in handling it than I was when I lost her- mostly because she at least wanted to be friends then.. as opposed to know, a time when she has a tendancy to let it be known to all just how much she despises me. One of her friends is in DevArt, and may even read this. Sucks, because she's a friend of mine, too.. See, that's what hurts the most- knowing some of my best friends are at the same time, her best friends.

It really tries a man's trust, when he doesn't know if he can even trust his own friends- when he constantly wonders who's saying what behind his back.. especially since this wouldn't be the first time a good friend of mine has stabbed me there. I just wish I knew what to do. I have people to call and talk to about this, but I don't want to flood their ears with this drivel.. it's my problem, mine to deal with, and mine alone. I just wish I knew how to solve it.

And probably the biggest challenge of this is that I love her sister to death. She's one of my best friends, and there aren't many people, certainly no women that I'm as comfortable around as I am around her. She's one of the few people that makes me truely feel like I'm not the one who's wrong, like I'm fine just as I am.. It's a feeling I'm not blessed with all too often anymore..

I need a good way to vent. I have a sword.. I need a yard full of bamboo to slice in frustration... Andy, I might randomly show up in SanDiego sometime. ^^' though I'll give you a random-alert call beforehand, promise.

kay, well, I have a couple models now, and so my photography should be looking up. It's something I've wanted to do for a while, but never had the equipment or models for it... Now thaat I do, I'ma take advantage. ^^ But anyhow, the frequent updating is a result of my having a new account, and a lot of stuff to get up there.. so here in a couple days, things'll start slowing down, because most of the stuff I wanted to start with is up there. As time goes on, and I get newer and better stuff, I may delete some of my older pieces, etc, etc, but it'll be a long while before that happens.

So I'll go ahead and cut the hardine on this little rant.. ja, minna. ^^